Hoping that a daily log will keep me motivated

On December 6th, I woke up at 4 AM to drive down to Moffit to have hernia surgery.  I got all prepped, had the IV in me, and was minutes away from being wheeled in.  I was told in August to lose some weight. Not only did I not LOSE weight, I had actually gained weight.  The surgeon came in and "recomended" postponing the surgery.  This was what I needed to hear.   I was not mentally ready, I knew that I had not really put forth a good effort to lose the weight.  Oh, I would diet here and there, probably lost almost 30 pounds, but I put it back on.   So I agreed with the surgeon, I had my IV removed, and Deb and I drove back home.  Deb was mad at the surgeon for not bringing up the weight in the month prior to the surgery, but she did not know that I NEEDED this to happen.  I needed to realize that I was too fat to undergo an operation.  Why I could not do this for myself, I do not know.  But I had been feeling down for the past 6 - 8 weeks.   My favorite golfing buddy was moving, so I was unhappy.  I had cut back on golf, since I thought I was going to be out for 2 months, and wanted to prepare for my days of not golfing.  Well I realized that I did not do so well mentally with all of this, and thus I continue to eat my normal way, and just put back on the weight.  All the way up to 290 lbs.

The holidays are a TOUGH time to START a diet, but I figure it is better to struggle dieting, than to just gain the 10 to 15 Christmas pounds.

So I worked out a Couch to 5K plan.  I need to get some light exercise in.  I also am going to go back to the Carnivore diet.

I am doing a 4 day fast to start off the diet.  I am in the middle of day 3 now.

I am also going to do some stretching to gain SOME flexibility.  Right now I have none.